25 May 2005


Just trying out a tool to add picture to my Blog. Took this picture at Coogee beach the winter before last... Posted by Hello

18 May 2005

yesterday... all my troubles seemed so far away...

Today was an odd sort of day - 3 things stand out:

A collegue's wife had a serious car accident, and it wasn't certain that she would pull through

A seriously pissed off ex-employee of my organisation visited and earbashed me about a range of issues although they all predated my employment here. He got angrier and angrier, and drew his gripes into the conversation from far and wide, to the point where I was trembling (and I promise I did nothing at all to inflame the situation), and I had to walk him out my office to stop his crescendo of anger

I'm all excited about a visit to the mountains this weekend to catch up with my girlfriends!! Mention the word slumber party and I'm all for it!!

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ps like the new colour scheme? had to change the template because the comments server I was using crashed. Hope to bring in pictures and a better sidebar in the near future, but need a techy to help me out...

13 May 2005

Had a dream the other night that I was on a rollerblading obstacle/orienteering course through the countryside – kind of like a corporate extracurricular thing. Had to climb over cyclone fences wearing the skates and everything!! Was in the company of mostly middle-aged men and occasionally their female partners, and C-chan was there with me for this part of the dream. Later, was going along a cliff alone with a gorge below but wasn’t sure if I’d taken the right path.

It seems I was on the right path to finish the race, and the race finished up at my Primary School oval having to do a lap to finish. Found I was actually amongst the first 20 to finish, but was suddenly only wearing a towel around my lower half. My movement felt extremely unnatural as I did this last lap clutching the towel and still wearing roller blades, I think? I somehow managed to finish, but I was just one of many in the race so no big deal and there was no one there to greet me.

What an uninspiring dream. Hardly needs interpretation – there are three themes:
- I am often the only female in my work meetings and teams (I knew that already, but maybe I should think about this some more)
- While what I’m doing at work is complex, everyone else I work with is working on equally complex stuff and everyone else is so busy also that what I do well doesn’t stand out… oh great I’m still a big kid looking for praise…
- I guess I’m struggling with certain things and worried these will be exposed (keeping towel on), yet am facing extraordinary challenges (e.g. rollerblading obstacle course)

Look forward to the next dream where I am effortlessly gliding through the ocean…

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Yay a new hobby!!

Yes there is life after work. Did a beading course at the shop under my apartment block on the weekend…. Learned to make a beaded necklacey thing. Am remaking the one I did in the course as was a bit short. Now have groovy green beads to wear with lime green top.

Hopefully strings of groovy beady bracelets and necklaces will result for all my loved ones!! That’s provided I actually show some skill in this area…

04 May 2005

two unrelated ponderings...

Life (for me) is currently like building up the courage to jump off the end of a jetty into the ocean for thrills. Walk up to the edge of the jetty, look down, gauge the height, back a pace, forward again, build up the courage, think a while, bend the knees & poise to jump, worry you might do a mega belly flop, back off, decide you do want to go through with it after all, walk to the edge… jump?

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There is something really off-putting about someone getting off on their newfound power. Especially when that person is totally oblivious to the general ill feeling and suspicion that is radiating back towards them from numerous camps.